Journal #3

So we've reached an impass..... (think Princess Bride)

AP resigned..... his letter "I'm resigning due to the conduct of xxxx in his role as pastor / shepherd of xxx church.

Based on Eziekiel he carried his stuff out of the office publically and slowly (as if going into exile). This caused much uproar, he was well loved. I had been at his home the night before praying with his spouse and that was not the plan. I believe God did this to bring it all out in the open.

Now we are waiting to see what will happen with YM and music guy (he's on vacation, he's way stressed - he messed up one Sunday, never seen him do that). They have called in a mediator, great plan if you are a business but sucks when the pastor hand picked him and filled him in before they all met together. However, they announced a meeting last Wednesday, we will answer all your questions they said. Many, many people came. We got a sermon on the tongue and were told that we could write out all our questions and the pastor would review them. They kept saying they were there because were was "conflict among the staff" but never said what it was. I finally raised my had and surpirse they acknowledged me. I asked that they state what the conflict was. The mediator said, "Several months ago some people left the church, part of the staff wants reconciliation, part believes there is no need." Then he asked if that summed it up, some said no, but he didn't go any further. There were a few more questions, but no answers.

The previous Sunday the worship was dead. This Sunday was interesting. I went because my son led worship and I wanted to be there for that. Worship was good (okay even if I wasn't his mom it wasn't bad) but pastor didn't show. And he didn't bother to tell his staff where he was. Chairman of the deacons announced he took some time off. I've heard he went out of state to meet with his dad. I don't know.

This is a brief summary of much action. There is a lot of hurt, a lot of anger. I don't see me there any longer. I belive what I said after the prayer thing, I'm done there. My concern now is for my sons, the youngest is still in the youth, and I would like him to remain under the youth minister until that changes.

Pray for this church. I honestly believe that if the pastor doesn't repent he will perish. While I have tried to maintain respect and not state everything this is what many of us believe. I think he was brought here by God to be confronted with his sin, but also that he should repent and have much ministry in the future. I still pray for him, I would rather that he repent and be blessed. I have seen two times where God did judgement on people, and I hope to never see it again.