Maybe It's Us

To jump in or not. There is uproar in the church. What's new you say, well, it's been ten years or so since the last church I was in had uproar. We left that church, came to this one. Maybe it's us.

So this week, I went to the church to pray. Sadly, there was an "unfortunate" event that happened in the sanctuary in front of the alter. I honestly never saw it coming. Again, my flesh is quite strong, had I time to think, I might have reacted differently and I actually didn't hear everything that was said to me (what was said that I missed was quite tacky and mean). As it was, I focused in on "so you are telling us to leave? We are here to pray!" Suddenly when the woman realized I was going to force her to tell us to leave where all could hear she backed down. There was prayer by all (actually some of it has come to be quite funny to me - I didn't realize that God prefers us to pray with the persons title attached to the name ie Dr. so and so -- or that the denomination is the one closest to the the early church and the right one

I'm so tired of games. And then there was my anger. Was it rightous anger that someone would, in the sanctuary at the alter, tell someone who was there to pray to leave. And of course, as a southern woman that you would be so tasteless to act as unkind as she did. The thoughts from some of those there has amused me. I have been assured I could have "taken" her / them. *giggle* But pleased that I made no move that I now would regret.

So what to do tomorrow? My feeling now is that I should not send my 16 y/o without parental cover. Should they want to say mean things, maybe he does need to hear it. However, Christ would not be glorified by that. I can go, discretely be in the balcony after Sunday School (the 2nd graders are unaware of the conflict, I think it will be okay to be with them). I can show that I bear no malice.

So you ask, have I forgiven? Yes, I believe so. Did it hurt? Yeah, but at this time I've kinda laughed a lot at how foolish it is. Compare the suffering of a few women's scorn to the sufferings of Christ, of any of the disciples, of any Christing in a communist country and this is nothing. With that thought, I kinda wish they had been meaner (oops, tomorrow still looms) to at least have something worthy of comparison.

Well, I don't know what will happen, when I think about it, it matters not. The average church has no clue of the importance of the body of Christ, or what I believe is more worthy of our time. I have begun to think this people isn't interested in anything but what the "convention" wants. They got what they wanted, a big name preacher, and all his baggage.

Sad Day

This day must be remembered in my personal life. A friend went with me to pray in the sanctuary of the church that I attend and she is still a member of (God has called her away, but she still teaches one of the classes for now). We were told upon re-entering the sanctuary that she was not welcome there. She had was one that had been spreading dissention. Actually she is one that has been praying diligently for the person that told her to leave. I asked, "you are telling us to leave?" They told me no, but she had to leave. I replied that she was my guest, but we would leave. Another stepped in and said we should all stay and pray together. We did.

Towards the end of this time of prayer, where we all sought God's will for this place, I had the image that I was to wash my hands of this place. At the time I left the sanctuary I had my shoes off (common for when I pray), I picked them up and walked out. When I told my husband of the incident, repeating that I had repented of anger I felt at being told she must leave he said no, rightous indignation is right. I don't know, I leave that in God's hands. But then he told me he had been feeling we were to take out shoes off, dust off our feet and leave that place.

Must more to write, but this was to be recorded. I think we are clear about the path we are to take.