Going to the Source

Today has been about going to the source. Our church is going through a difficult time and many people are leaving. It's sad. #1 son works for the church, #2 son has left the church (with our blessings) #3 son is wanting to teach in the childrens area with me backing him up.

A long discussion was held with spouse, #1, #3, and myself today. The thing that really came out of it was that we need to be seeking our source, Jesus, and not be swayed by the emotion and anger around us. There is no need to side with anyone, but to love all. #1 son is deeply torn in all this, many of his friends have left and yet he is not at this time. We encouraged him to focus on the two things: love and his source. The church if we focus on it is not our source. I didn't learn that the first time this happened, and now I am not as affected because I have that understanding.

The other thing is to remember Jesus on the ship in the storm. He wasn't affected, he wasn't upset. He wasn't even aware there was a storm. This can be achieved. In fact, it is where we should be. Give me the grace for this. Please.

Worship

Today in church it occured to me that many of the songs that we have been singing are "me" or "I" oriented. This disturbs me.

The point of worship is to worship, and while singing praises is appropriate, it just seemed that many of the songs were more about us than God.

My problem is that I don't want to be a complainer. I love comtemporary worship yet I also love the hymns. Our new worship leader doesn't seem to do hymns. Maybe it's that the songs are new to me, maybe it's my heart. I feel guilty even writing this. Maybe I need an attitude adjustment.

Maybe I'll just take my iPod and quietly worship for a bit and forget about complaining. It didn't work out so good for the Isralites, I can hardly expect better for me. (quietly gathers iPod and slithers off to adjust attitude).

Starting Point

First things. My background is Christian, and I am one. I actually am trying to walk out what I believe. As a friend recently told me, "It is good news." It is!!! Not all Christians act like it, and for the previous few years in my life, I was angry at God and, well, I showed Him. (actually He showed me how lonely I was without Him). Now I am older, somewhat wiser, but actually more inclined to reevaluate my beliefs.

So the starting point is this: ...He has told you, O man, what is good: and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness (mercy) and to walk humbly with your God? Micah 6:8

I'm thinking this verse could take a lifetime to absorb, but it's a wonderful place to start. I am a nurse in a critical care unit. Daily I get to show kindness to those around me. However the natural part of me is sometimes not kind, and sometimes that is appropriate (but that is more when I need to be telling people the facts).

This is where I am, but there is turmoil around me that I need help resolving. What is my source, well, not the internet, but more from the Creator, however hearing Him is not always easy. I have friends around me that are very stable, and God seems to be sending me people to help me. We shall see.

First Thoughts

This blog is simply a journey through my thoughts. You may comment, I encourage it. Lately I have found that I need to organize my thoughts on paper, yet I prefer the idea of having a place like this. I suspect it will be more of a spiritual nature, if I offend you, I am sorry, yet I am trying to grow, so please comment about it. I have no special insight, I'm looking to grow.